Can't sleep, i don't know why~

maybe i am also tired of everything hahaha

its not that tired anyway,now Blood Brother with yaoyang le......

and nothing much to worry about .........

needa practice my songs later on like sian only~

maybe at night than call/find yaoyang ba...............

waiting for leon's phone call as well..........

The only song that can say out my true feelings for now

My immortal

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase


when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase


i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along



7:46 AM


So Many things to talk about hahahaha,

but everything now is back like it use to be

Finally~

and with hopefully an new addition to the family :D

♥ Yao yang & Karrie

& XXX qi


12:22 PM


i never fail to keep looking back into the past........

just too much regret,last night drank finish the bottle of
alcohol that we didn't manage to drink finish at arron's house

even if yy forgive me i still can't bring myself to forgive myself
but glad that he did la........will try to move on ba..............

lols ytd kana disturb by yy & karrie

that di keep calling me mei hmmmmm

can't remember much about last night i wonder i got call him
n talk to him rubbish or not lols later call n check.........

i guess its time to move on la......


8:01 AM


Had a totally hard time sleeping last night,

cause i finally know the true cause of the gap between me and yy
the cause itself.........

i was quite happy throughout the whole night la..........

hahahaha now just need to bring back n earn back his trust
than everything will go back to normal i hope


10:09 AM


♥ Yao Yang , Amanda , Leon & Karrie

10:21 PM


well now blogging from yy house hahahahah

like now i finally understand , all the while i have been wrong about him

well i think i have learned my lesson never judge ppl
well i seems quite surprise that he really does care well

who knows i mean the truth is i cannot bring myself to
fully trust him but i can say for now i trust him now lahs.........

well fine amanda you win this one :)

hahahaha nothing much to add on le la..........
just hope that he can change for the better lorhs.......

<3 Yao yang & amanda

10:25 PM



Today might the last day i meet yy , talked to me alot of things
for just today..................

Lost my Hp again today........

i can still remember i went for an interview
i was like freaky nervous on that day itself i mean i am not fully dressed
in office wear and is like i see all the other so call "job seekers la" they all
holding one whole stack of certificate and stuff and is like OMG hahahaha
how to compare sia i didn't even bring any certs or even dress well

so i kinda like text him like omg all of them seems so professional hahahaha

i told him like ehhs di got 6 ppl there le

and he told me in an sms got 7 u forgot to count me in ......

hahahahaha i mean sometimes all this little things that ppl do can just
warm your heart i mean this little things that ppl do they might not mean
anything big , but to the other party it might be just something big and meaningful
hahaha or maybe to you i am just a hi-bye friend please lah if yes just tell me or

maybe i am wrong about you or maybe i am right who knows only you
yourself knows which in time we will see ba .

i just really hope that he can change for the better lah~

hahahaha

hope amanda is right about you :)

but till then i think maybe i might not be able to even see him anymore........................




2:25 AM







I have come to find out something,this time i give up on everything le lah
they can do wateva they want le i just give up..........today might be even
the last day i am meeting them i guess like i say before le lah i mean nothing
to them at all i heard it from the conversation myself to them their answer
is always a don't know i mean if for what if you don't know than just in the
1st place just let me go lah simple what for u want to hang on to me and than
do all this shit to disappoint me ??? i mean what for i care for them feeling heart
broken for them?? and they don't even give a shit its their life lah i cannot control
anything this is just a movie about a teen screwing himself up and ppl tried to care
for him but he does not give a shit i feel so sorry for the teen himself......................

yes to them they did nothing wrong cause in their eyes nothing seems to be wrong
have they even spare a thought for me? if i find out what would happen?

if they fucking know how i would react when i find out still what for
disappoint me in the 1st place??

i have shed enough tears le..........

tired.............

i really don't mind to die if that is the only thing to get them to wake up


8:46 AM


its all about emotions why now , why did all the pain have to come
back now that is one thing i don't understand but 1 thing i know for sure is that
history is about to repeat itself which i can't bring myself to let go but i have no
choice even if i did i think leaving is still the best i have nothing much to do anyway

everytime there is also someone to make things worse..........


2:20 PM


Today nothing much on lah~

went to bugis today and was hoping that leslye will appear or something
but ended up he didn't really appear so ya, cause he lost his phone and he
can't contact me or xaver lols funny sia now dunno when he will appear nia

after waiting for up to 2 hours i got like freaking bored not much
KOF players today and is like so sian after that like went and find amanda
lols she gave me my B'dae Present and is like a KFC a 2 pis chicken meal lols~

but who cares as long as got the heart
can le la but she dunno what to give me marhs
so i just like as her for a kfc meal lorhs like
i always go meet her all the time also eat kfc nia
like funny only cause from day 1 i met her like all the while all eat kfc nia.

after meeting her awhile slack with her and ya she is going thur the ladies's time
of the month hiaxxx i think i am like so glad that guys don't have mens lols~
talked about some releationship problems~

after that went back to jurong like fuck waited for arron like for 45mins ~_~
called lao gong while waited for arron and like fuck how can someone injure
their leg like just stomping on the freaking floor nvm lah~

than just watched fobbien kingdom at his hse diao his mother is like
freaky young lols~ now he stare stare at my typing nia
walao weis his key board sux to the max not flat wan xD
now he is begin lame he today like siao siao one lols~

he super high even when not drinking hmmmm maybe is his
that time of the month LOLSSSSS~

he playing GTA on his psp like diao lols~

yy coming back to singapore on sunday i guess
amanda still sick so sad
xaver dunno what he doing now should be at timah
gab i have no idea to what he really up to

bb peeps ~ lolss explaining final fantasy to arron lols like kns

=X

12:14 AM


This is another boring day nothing to do at all~

Maybe going bugis later hahahahaha

see how la last night called leon n check on stuff

Kids these day hiaaaxxxx no respect for somethings
nvm la today will be either staying at home or just
like go bugis or smth lorhs cause like nothing to do
at all sia super sian


1:22 PM