The Lastest photo of me very loooooooooong nv camwhore le~



Just woke up an hour ago , went to buy a pack of ice blast

Xav Finally Called~

Glad that he is recovering from his sickness
worried sick man he also went into the hospital
but lucky nothing much happen la

he washing his car now hiaxxx

Finally the chaotic Era is beginning to clam down

now just stone at home n watch movie ba


1:00 PM


Today is what i called a nice day~

Woke up in the afternoon,called Miru

Than went out with him to plaza singapura

After that we met Yao Yang & he is with the father
so didn't really talk to him much lols~

At P.S 1st Takoyaki 2nd yakitori 3rd Arzabo sabo 4th Angor Daifuku
today we are like eating so much shit today lols very long nv like that
spend money on food le lols but ya it was nice XD

Cabbed to pioneer n meet giwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

after that went to jurong point n play arcade lols they play arcade i play
miru's psp Bleach lols than after that went to the kopitiam n eat
the korean food is like still nice n best cheap somemore lols

so after food went to find yy at his house n chatted for like hmmm 5mins i guess
than i went home but heng la got pass him the jacket lols~

now here back in my house like gonna sleep soon or smth
Chao's ppl ~


11:44 PM




Please Take note that this picture is at least 3 years old
this was taken before lady gaga was still a nobody (clap,clap)
so i was thinking can i sue her or not LOLSSSS

BAD ROMANCE ~

A|3x Going Gaga-ish

Anyways super bo liao lorhs so update blog ba

Yesterday due to gab de "Misunderstanding problems"

didn't really got any mood to drink la , me n amanda waited for leon
for at least a century or two i guess, ended up we cab to leon's hse....

slack at there,cooked at there & Sleep at there

nothing much yesterday la..........................


so today woke up around 8+ at leon's place i just went to bath and
left the house hahahahahaha at least i bother to leave a letter ya know
they all sleep till like dead log so don't disturb them let them go sleep 1st

and today's plan was suppose to meet yaoyang at his place
with leon but leon went to find his soccer friends and yaoyang
told me today cannot go find him than so be it lorhs ...........

but ya ended up nv go also nvm lorhs

nothing much to do also today's music lesson canceled

this is why i hate fridays all plans can get canceled like nobody's problem

look on the bright side at least after 11pm i still get to watch 3guo LOLSSS~





A|3x - Left to be forgotten (as usual)
Z|-|aN3 - Somewhere within (please don't come out)
Z3N0Ton3 - "Unknown" (no idea???)


Tears are meant to be shed for people that you love & protect which i failed to
i have no idea why am i always feeling heart pain for you people please cherish
yourself more while i still have time to look after you guys,the truth is i have not
much with you all,even if i promise you all not to bring this up but is is how i truly
feel........................

i am not fit to be anyone's kor/Best Friend...........

but that is just my feeling alone well.........

not fit than try to be fit into one la this is what "she" would have told me hahahahaha

Nevertheless still

A|3x ♥ Yao Yang,Leon & Gabriel My 3 only G@n Didi~
A|3x ♥ Amanda & Karrie My 2 Only G@n Mei~

7:06 PM


Something is wrong with me nowadays man

Morning woke up puke blood again,Chest pain hiaxxxxx

Moody on yesterday's night after talking to yy n gab on phone

i don't know a part of me wanna give up on them

a part of me don't ..................


this time i am abit lost lahs but come till the end
they also nv do anything wrong n i promise them
i won't bring this up again so ya a promise is
a promise i don't wanna break it la...........................

later meeting yy at dunno wat time

after that go meet amanda n leon

than ya life still goes on...............


9:32 AM


This is the final post of the day........

abit in the wrong mood now hahaha just changed songs
n edited a few blog thingys........

Sometimes i really really feel like giving up on my gans...........

i mean ppl always tell me for what i wanna help them??

but i always always tell them if i don't care/protect them who will??

but now come to think of its from what i observe i can see that the truth is
they don't really need me,they might be doing even better without me and
at times i feel that i am gonna ruined their life any moment i must admit
i am a useless gan kor la just hope that one fine day they will start to think
for themself.The truth is i can see that they all don't really need me at all
well maybe they do need me as someone to call to go out or slack..............

Everytime i wanna talk to yy but he would just wanna change topic.....

or ask someone else to tag along or smth........

gab foreva having problem with this n that getting piss at minor things

as much as i can see they will be doing fine with/without me

i mean it la,i can't blame yy for not trusting me but ya without me he will be
doing a whole better i believe no one to find him everyday/call/leture
as i assume that to him i m nothing........................

and to Gab i m just another nagger


i can give up everything for all my gans........
i don't expect any return at all

a platinum smile is what i wear.........
Enjoy the new song too :)


11:32 PM


Today went to pick up yy frm soccer training lols

After that pei him go home ~

hahaha didn't really get a chance to talk to him today

cause he is like @-@ cause ytd he didn't get enough sleep hiaxx

nvm ba hope tml can meet leon n yy together hahaha gab tml going out with his
dream gal so ya jaiyou didi~~~~

Hiaxxxxxxxxx

TML loooooooooooooooong day to go~~~


9:16 PM





A Picture or me & my Di~

(Cause he always complain my blog no pic very boring -_-)




Yesterday was like kns, totally no mood to do anything.........

Crazy thoughts run wild i don't know whats wrong with me nowadays.......

But i ended up hanging on to what i believe i can change so ya.........

Didn't really wanna bother much but i just can't bring myself to let go

like i always tell myself if i don't take care of them n protect them who will??


today i will be tell out the truth to someone important to me................


10:43 AM


I can't hang on anymore...........

no one seems to care so why should i care??

its their life i have no right to control what they do......

its over .......

i may not be posting for awhile.............


1:33 PM


Yesterday was nothing much just normal stoning at home ~_~

Call My didi~ & Mei hahahaha

Settle some problems for Leon & Amanda ,Can't release the whole chat in Details
Private conversation mahs~

Later meeting yy hahaha Cooked some porridge for him ~~

hiaxxx

Dunno what the Darren Kobax got taiji in his sch than the Gab also dunno go there
do what not into details lols but it was freaking random hiaxxxx sian-ed

Boring day today , later still need to go hunt for my MarlBol0 Ice Blast
as the whole freaking singapore is out of stock till they re-stock during the 30th
like FUCK!!!!!!!

Shag life~


11:08 AM


Now i got 3 gan didi only~

<3 YaoYang,Leon & Gabriel

&

a Gan Mei

Amanda <3

I am just really scare that i don't have much time left to look after them.............

Vomited Blood 4 times toady hiaaaxxxx

now having serious pain in alot of places hahaha...........

Head,Neck & Back

Hiaxxx just have to bear all the pain along ba~




10:41 PM


Today is a fucking boring day nothing to do at all -_-"

i suppose later imma just gonna go buy Cigs n than just rot / melt at home man,

Or i can go find YaoYang Didi if he can come out lahs if not i think i should be stoning at home

Hiaxxxx very sian lorhs~


2:48 PM


So many problems came up nowadays, i don't really wish to talk much about it

but looooooooooong time no post so 1 shot give one long one ba.

now many things has change the brothel hse has been close down in a way,
not much habboers are free to come out nowadays too is just like everyone
is busy with their own life and so this comes to a point where its time to close
the brothel hse le.......hahahahaha its like all the happy times don't last long at all.

in anyway its a good time to M.I.A or smth like anyway i don't contact ppl ,they don't
contact is like as good as M.I.A le la lols~

so now most of the time as usual hanging out with Xav But many things have change
ever since Xaver got his Suzuki Swift Sports now new hanging out spot is bukit timah.

There are too many things that happen since the previous post and the sad part is
Some friends are now Foes,plus on the fact that on this planet
there are still alot of immature ppl which is suppose to be very mature for their age like i say no names mention along with it.For those ppl that know the story than you should know who
am i talking about if not too bad lorhs hahahahahahah

But now after a very long time i finally came to truly know , why NoN0 did this to me
in the 1st place because i am now also facing the same problem she choose to give up on me
but i choose to give them a 2nd chance because i don't wanna see the 2 gan di i dote so much
go through the same things i have but when the time is right i will still have to leave them
no matter what , cause its their life not mine i can't go over n control them all i can do is talk
to them on somethings and help them when they need thats the most i can do as a kor la.......

but the funny thing is somehow this is what NoN0 n lao shi have taught me,Action is of no use
sometimes you just need to talk a step back n u will see a clearer picture.

Even when a 2nd chance is given if they don't cherish it i will still leave them as chances
are not always given to you all the time sometimes you just have to earn your chances
but for now i just wana protect them as long as i can.

now i think this is the most common question that ppl like to ask me
"Why you single so long le still nv find stead, Are you a gay??"

Which the answer is very simple which i don't think anyone will believe me
the truth is - when other ppl are having a bad time moving on with Break ups
i can tell them what to do but i can't apply those things, i teach ppl to myself
i can't forget her and the happy times we use to share thats why.i can say la
if i were to date any girl as a replacement i rather not, because i know that
i can't forget my Ex i have tried very hard to forget about her but always end
up as a fail because i love her thats why i let her go i wanted to see her to be
happy thats all...........btw gayness if for entertaiment sake ty~

it seems that i have not been going for music lesson for a freaking looooooong time!!!!!!!!!

other than that i hope there will be no more problems coming up in the near future
as i just want my 2 most recent gan di to lead a peaceful life hahahaha

Signing off

A&Z


8:13 PM